I need to quit my job.
What I mean is I need to get off my ass in my non-work hours and make our music endeavors a viable income option.
I cannot do this anymore. I hate my job. I hate it. I thought I could massage my brain into accepting it. But like, I walked away from a career after 8 years and so I have little-to-know compulsion to loyalty to this job I've had for 364 days.
I'm gonna go and try to be productive but also play Animal Crossing cos fuck capitalism and fuck how miserable I am.
Gonna take this negative manic energy and try to spin it into something productive. Like for real. I do a lot of stuff. I like doing a lot of stuff. Music, crochet, etc.
My biggest issue is I have this Gen X aversion to monetizing what I love and turning it into the most cringeworthy, millennial thing of all time: a side hustle.
It's gross. I'm old. I remember when you just did a thing and it provided.
Ah well, the world has outpaced me. I guess I need to adapt.
Please:
Be kind to yourself.
Fuck the police.
Keep social distancing.
Wash your hands.
Wear a mask.
GET VACCINATED.
Stay safe.
It's the dumbest american holiday of the year. If I see one more american flag gif I'm gonna barf.
Anyway, I actually have 1 whole work day worth of being left the fuck alone (interspersed over a week) and so I did the only right and good thing which is play Animal Crossing and update this site! I've worked 10-12 hours every day for 5 weeks, so fuck it. I earned it.
I think I need to start being more aggressive about finding a source of income that isn't dependent on employment. And then getting the fuck out of this place both work-wise and country-wise.
Better start diving into Duolingo hard core.
Please:
Be kind to yourself.
Fuck the police.
Keep social distancing.
Wash your hands.
Wear a mask.
GET VACCINATED.
Stay safe.
Welp it's been over a week. I am so tired. I am doing too much work and I hate it. I'm 41 now. I still live in the U.S. and it STILL sucks.
I am really and truly on the verge of doing something unwise like quitting my job and just uprooting us and moving to Spain like 100000000% fuck it we'll see what happens.
I'm not a throw caution to the wind kind of person. But I am now a 41 year old person and I do not like our circumstances very much.
Oh well oh well I guess we'll see.
It doesn't help that DST is over and now we're in standard time hell, where the sun sets at 4 pm and it's utter horseshit.
Please:
Be kind to yourself.
Fuck the police.
Keep social distancing.
Wash your hands.
Wear a mask.
GET VACCINATED.
Stay safe.
Oh hey it's November.
Last month was a disaster of too much work. I don't actually think November will be any different, I just forced myself to get up early to try to get things rolling on here for November. I'll try to be more consistent.
I'm pre-tired for today. I wish I had something interesting to share.
I turn 41 on Saturday. I still live in the US. It sucks.
Please:
Be kind to yourself.
Fuck the police.
Keep social distancing.
Wash your hands.
Wear a mask.
GET VACCINATED.
Stay safe.