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 Never Even Labeled 


archived:  30 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

Happy last day of April. I'm opening my windows in celebration (it's really nice out).

I am so ready for this week to be over. It hasn't been a bad week, I am just ready for a weekend. So very ready.

My stupid rash is finally going away, I think. It hurts a lot less. Hope this doesn't happen again with shot #2. (Again, this is not anti-vax propaganda. Side effects happen. It's not a big deal. I'm inconvenienced. But you know what, I'm not dead, I'm not deathly ill, and I'll be fine.)

My plants are doing so good in their new environment. I am thinking I might have to move my rescued amaryllis to our cofffee table. It's just so giant. When I received it, it was one of those poor bulbs who had had it's roots hacked off and then the bulb was wrapped in a balloon and dipped in wax. Cos this is a good and proper thing to do to a living organism. Anyway it's huge now and I'm kind of curious what their normal behavior is. I'm not interested in putting it into dormancy. While I like the flowers, I don't intend to force it to bloom, though I would love if it bloomed again on its own.

No other big news. Just very happy that the weekend is imminent.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 Tiny Baskets! 


archived:  29 April 2021 
tagged:  Crafting 

Below you can see my adorable baskets. I made the two smaller baskets from  this pattern  and the handled basket from  this pattern .

I am happy to report that the process was super simple, and I had never used multiple strands at once before, and I had also never made handles before. I also didn't have the exact sizes for the hooks that the patterns called for, but I had ones that were ~close enough~ that they turned out fine.

I chose the colors I did because they complememt the colors of the rug and entry-way bench accoutrement. One of my friends described our entire look as "tidy yet comfortable" and that is 100% my goal. So we have a space that is always clean and slick, but without looking like a minimalist, trust-funded nightmare that lacks personality and culture. Seems like so far we're pulling it off.

Oh, and a note on the yarn. I only buy cheap, acrylic yarn. Both because it is cheap and because it is vegan. I don't need these to be soft and cuddly, I need them to Hold My Stuff. lol.

3 small, crocheted baskets, viewed from the top
3 small, crocheted baskets, viewed from the side

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 Old Habits 


archived:  28 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

I feel pretty good today. That is surprising for 2 reasons. 1 - it's grey out, and I HATE when I'm not getting direct sunlight. 2 - My fucking rash is so raw and tender and wearing a shirt is AWFUL and I got no sleep because I'm a stomach sleeper and I can't sleep on my stomach when the rash hurts SO BAD.

But anyway I got my crochet baskets all done and they're so cute and I love them. I'll do a proper write up later.

Somehow this entire morning is getting away from me. I need to go eat lunch.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 Reshape Power 


archived:  27 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

Baskets are coming along well. I made 2 small baskets and am now making the one with handles. I've never actually made handles in crochet before so either this will go great, or it will burst into flames in my hands. All I know is that I've watched a thousand videos on how to make magic circles (for starting a circular crochet project) and it always ends in disaster. I suppose the name is apt. Magic isn't real, and I cannot get these magic items to exist IRL. I have a friend who's convinced she can find a video that I can learn from. I appreciate her energy, but it will NEVER HAPPEN.

My rash still looks like I've been shot by the world's tiniest shotgun. Womp.

My boss is demanding I go to a conference in August (remote). I don't want to. I just want to put my head down and do my work. Ugh.

Anyway, I should stop being crabby, it is beautiful outdoors. I'm gonna go open some windows and get my mind right.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 Not Bothered 


archived:  26 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

Rash has gone from itchy to horrible pain. I hate it. My side skin is still sensitive, but I've been soaking it with rosewater every hour or so to keep the pain to a minimum. And it smells lovely, so at least I smell like a refined old lady while having this "world's tiny shotgun wound" pattern of rash on my stomach. *SHRUG EMOJI*

We went on a hunt for a bowl/tray/basket for keys/covid masks, sunglasses for our entry way and I've decided that I'm just going to make a holder out of yard. I'm probably going to follow either  this pattern for a mini basket with handles  or  this pattern for 3 little baskets  OR MAYBE I'll make both patterns, resulting in 4 total baskets. I do like the idea of the three small baskets being one each of the three colors I put into the one with handles. We'll see.

I feel like I was going to talk about other stuff, but I think I'm going to dedicate this last bit of my morning prior to work to crocheting for a bit.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 Power Lines 


archived:  22 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

I feel like traaaaaaaaaaaash this morning. My side hurts a lot. My rash is gross. My head is so achey. BUT ALSO it could be being exacerbated by it being ~pms time~. Fucking biology, amirite?

I'm supposed to have an internet outage tomorrow AND some folks are coming in to fix a windowsill and I'm just like aaaaaaaah and maybe I'll have my training group work on stuff as a group/on their own cos I don't even know when the fuck I'm going to be online. We'll see. I have a 1:1 with my manager later this morning and I'll get his opinion on the best course of action.

I am trying to be more mindful in everything I do. So I take each plant down from their perch and spend time with them each morning making sure they are sparky and happy and watering only if needed. It takes about 10-15 mins total which isn't even a long time, and it makes me feel good. Plus I'm doing it as the sun rises and I love sunrise. My own innate plant tendencies are pleased.

I'm gonna go ahead and log into work early so I can be prepped for today.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 True Mathematics 


archived:  21 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

I love rediscovering music I've forgotten about. Today that is the 2002 album Light & Magic by  Ladytron . Looking at the album cover and I just really miss having short hair. Soon. So soon. As soon as I get my second shot. I'm getting my hair and nails done and it will be so good.

I have this weird pain in my left side that I can only describe as the kind of pain a person feels when they are having muscle spasms, right before the twitch. But like, that pain has been there for 2 days now? And I have a weird rash on my stomach? Please don't be some weird niche covid situation. Or some weird, two weeks later reaction to the Pfizer vaccine. Ffffff didn't even consider that until right now. Okay, did my due diligence. The skin reactions that I'm seeing reported are usually at the injection site, which is not where my rash and pain are, BUT the timeline matches up and it's the only thing that I've done that has been out of regular routine. Thankfully the folks who had this reaction were all advised to receive their second shot and that the rash/irritation was all superficial and went away in 2-11 days. So I'll live. That's good.

See how easy it is to do research and find information and not turn into some weird pink-QAnon, anti-vax, Goop guzzling, woo-head? I like that I am capable of doing research and finding good, medical information, and am willing to put in the time to verify that information against multiple sites and not just read and take as gospel something on Jim-Bob's Fact Shack or some other bullshit site. Good job, me.

Anyway, I gave myself a lazy morning because yesterday was hectic and tomorrow is hectic and I just wanted to putz around this morning. Time to go to work.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 Unpredictable 


archived:  20 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

I've accomplished a lot for work today. I am very proud of myself. And I have an hour before I have to start a training session, and that also makes me happy. I'm giving myself a break because I've been working since 6 am and that means I'm putting in another 10 hour day. It's fine. I kind of set myself up for this when I didn't get more things done last week, but last week was a helluva adjustment to just being at work. So here we are and it's fine.

I'm irritable because there are 2 people I am working with who are refusing to just get their shit together. Not like aggressively, but like, subconsciously just making everything exceedingly difficult for no fucking reason. It's fine in a "it's not fine at all" kind of way. I am out of patience for trying to help them with problems that are so far out of my job scope that they are a dot to me.

I should really reach out to my advisor. I need to get my OWN shit together regarding my doctorate. I am so tired from work being so intense that I have nothing left to give, but in the end that's not an excuse. I need to find the fortitude to finish. I can get it done next school year if I just get my fucking life right.

I'm gonna go lay in the sun and relax before I have to go do work.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 National Stories 


archived:  19 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

Pay day. Love a month with 3 paychecks.

Weekend was good.

We finished mixing and mastering a new EP. It's a collection of re-masters of our first 2 singles, as well as one new song. Now we just need to figure out a title and then we're good to go. Are you currently seeking access to our music? Click on oh my golly records over on the sidebar to the left. It is thee 3rd link down, in yellow. If you want to support us, I strongly recommend doing so via bandcamp. Spotify is easier to use. I know that's where I listen to our music because I'm lazy. But bandcamp is far better for musicians.

I'm logging into work 2 hours early cos I have to run to the dentist to FINALLY get my Clear Correct tooth aligners. (Don't use Smile Direct. They are a scam.) Clear Correct is done via your dentist. You know, working with professionals to fix your teeth is probably a good idea?

I fucked up not one, not two, but three fucking bread batches Sunday. Idk what is wrong with me. I used to make bread so easily. I'm about to buy a fucking Kitchenaid out of desperation, when really I just need to buy some new yeast and slow the fuck down. I'm also frustrated because my thermometer doesn't want to clip onto our new pots, so it's hard to get water to be exactly the right temperature. Again, I need to slow the fuck down.

Oh! There's a new season of Infinity Train and I cannot recommend this show enough. It's so good. I don't know if it's also on the Cartoon Network app anymore, but it IS on HBO Max. And I can't find a direct website for it. Oh well. Anyway it is very good.

I should probably get dressed. Sigh.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 Insurgent Challengers 


archived:  16 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

Pay day. Love a month with 3 paychecks.

Tidied the heck out of our apartment and recorded a video. Not that I'm sharing it here cos lol nope, but it's just nice to have the space at peak!tidiness. Made beds and everything off the floor so that Beetle can vacuum when it wakes up in half an hour.

I'm in a way better mood than yesterday. Cos the work situation that is a problem isn't my fault and I don't actually care. Get fucked. Also it's Friday so double get fucked tbqh.

I'm counting down the days to my next Covid vaccination. 2 weeks from tomorrow. Bring it onnnnnnnnnnnn.

I think I'm gonna just go bask in some sunshine for this last 29 minutes before I log into work.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 Less Hard Bits 


archived:  15 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

An irritating thing is happening at work. I'm not going to elucidate, I'm just pissed.

Anyway, my bad cat has once again taking up not pooping in the litter box. I am also pissed about that. Fucking use the litter box. FFS.

Gonna work on fixing my god damn attitude even tho none of this is my fault. I can only change my reaction, not the situation.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 What Evil Was 


archived:  14 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

I signed up for that new USPS thing where they send you photos of your mail before you get it (it's a free service) and like now I am too lazy to take the stairs to get our mail. It's A PROBLEM. Lol whoops.

I have misplaced one of our cat toys. I gotta find it before our robot vacuum (non-IoT version, of course) wakes up. The Beetle will eat it and it is a problem. (I call it The Beetle cos the sweepy brooms look like beetle feets when it's whirring away.)

I am deeply on a major mood swing week and it's probably both the resumption of work this week and also the right time of a 28 day cycle for my hormones to be obnoxiously unbalanced. I wish I was one of those uterus-having-folks who get to go through menopause in their 40s. Alas, my family is cursed with fertility well into their 60s. 2 extra decades of bullshit and I don't even ever want kids. Blech.

Anyway, I'm gonna get to work early cos I have a ton of shit to get done and a busy morning on top of it.

OH I should mention I got my first Pfizer on April 10th, and May 1st I'll be all done getting jabbed. Never thought I'd be this excited about immunizations (I always get them, but it's more perfunctory) but here we are. Probably also a good time to say that if you're anti-vax maybe find a different blog to read. Or not. Maybe change your mind. You do you, boo.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 Leftist Economists 


archived:  13 April 2021 
tagged:  Writing 

It has been a whiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiile. That's what happens when you are moving and everything is at Peak!Disarray I suppose.

I am happy to report we are done moving. Sort of. I mean we're done moving in. We still want to get/display art, but the furniture is all in and in place and tidy and wonderful.

We still need to finish emptying the old house and prepping it for sale, but we can't even list it for like 3 more weeks cos reporting a death and waiting for creditors to come sniffing around is A Whole Thing.

I would take pics of our new place but I'm hesitant to give away information that could be easily construed into location information cos I know how Internet People are. And so like just imagine a really pretty apartment with a lot of houseplants and loads of natural light. Our place has So Many windows and I love it. Though it makes it hard to get to bed On Time because I just want to leave all of our blinds and curtains open until every last drop of sunlight has left.

Even through all of that I don't have a whole lot to report. We massively pared down our book collection to just those books that mean a lot to us. Turns out Marie Kondo was right. Plus we're near to An Unnamed Branch of the library, so we're gonna go get library cards and take advantage of those good good public works instead of unnecessarily buying books and also fuck reading on a screen. That's for folks who enjoy living in The Worst Future.

Whoops almost gave the game away on who my employer is just now. Suffice it to say that work actually does make me feel good. It's weird. I'm never going to be In Love with a job, but this one is pretty damn okay.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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