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 Not Enough Sky 


archived:  20 January 2022 
tagged:  Writing 

Made peace with a ton of shit in my life. Looking forward to potentialities that feel more real than they've felt in a very very long time.

I'm slowly extricating myself from reading about here cos soon here will be there and elsewhere will be here and that feels really good. Here is real bad y'all.

We've been watching Station Eleven and it's all right but spouse called it "a zombieless zombie-apocalypse show for people who think they're too good for zombie shows" and it has diminished for me. Not because of the zombie apocalypse part, but because of the pretense part. Anyway it's fine. The odd episodes are better than the evens. I'm 5 episodes in, we'll see where it lands.

I've also been reading books. I think I mentioned that before. Anyway I've read 3 books this year and that makes me happy. I used to read all the time as a kid. It's nice to get back to it.

I am listening to Tori Amos's first 3 albums today and I forgot how unapologetically horny they are and the reminder is a real delight. They are also unapologetically sad. Which I also thoroughly enjoy.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 Quickly Mention 


archived:  12 January 2022 
tagged:  Writing 

Well. I'm back on my bullshit. (That is,  I'm back on the fediverse .) I have my own private, hosted (let's be honest I'm never learning Linux), and just enjoying not looking at Twitter. Twitter makes me sad, cos the US is trash and there's nothing I can do about it.

I am weighing the idea of leaving my employer for my dream employer, but the position at my dream employer is tethered to US central time +/-2 hours. Which is a dealbreaker. There is a glimmer of a possibility in a different department at my current employer but I'm scared to think about it because I don't want to be disappointed.

I just want out of the US. I want it so bad. I will do anything to be free of this horrible place.

Anyway, I've been reading books this year and just trying to find work-life balance now that I'm back at work and honestly I hate it. Working I mean. I hate working. I think work is bulllshit.

I'm trying to be positive and it's sort of working. Sort of.

I just want to be happy.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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 Undying Love 


archived:  10 January 2022 
tagged:  Writing 

Today has been a lot.

First day back at [day job] in 3 weeks. Learned a thing that made me very angry. A thing I warned against but no one cares.

BUT then I learned my DREAM EMPLOYER expanded requirements for my DREAM JOB and so I'm working on my resume.

THEN I learned that a person quit with nary a goodbye in a better/higher paying department at CURRENT EMPLOYER.

So that's nice.

I went through this here site and a fixed a metric fuckton of unforced errors. Yeesh. I do everything here manually. Creation of archive pages, changing archive links, etc. I miss things sometimes. Sometimes for years. They are better now.

I go back through my old entries every once in a while. And boy oh boy does it make me sad to now know that 2/3 or better of the lifespan of this site has been under covid. Time is a fuck. Also this country's shit ass approach to covid. All a fuck.

Gonna sneak out of a meeting a few minutes early to go To The Dentist.

Please:

Be kind to yourself.

Fuck the police.

Keep social distancing.

Wash your hands.

Wear a mask.

GET VACCINATED.

Stay safe.

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