Whew what a Monday. Just a Monday ass Monday. It's fine. I'm trying to take the "let the chaos wash over me and deal with it tomorrow through the rest of the week" approach. This is different than procrastination, I tell myself repeatedly until I believe it.
I am struggling cos I want a NAS but I don't want proprietary bloatware but I do want it to be plug and play and search engines are so trash that I can't find anything even approaching functional as a review or starting point. It's all either obvious "paid endorsements masquerading as reviews" or "some Linux fuckhead who thinks I have a full time job's worth of time to just throw around on a media server."
Computers were a mistake.
Speaking of, I saw the most galaxy brain take on fedi the other day and I was a mature grown up who did not sub-post about it because it gives me chest pain. I'm also not going to talk about the content of it here cos it'll just give me chest pain. I'd actually been meaning to block that person's entire instance because quite a few folks who I really trust and respect were making noises about how not-chill this instance was. It took me a while because I do have this weird destructive tendency to want to know/dig into why a thing is bad and then I'm uncomfortable about it for a really long time. This time I just did the thing right away. Out of sight out of mind and now I don't feel wishy washy or like some weird liar.
In NON-internet news I bought a Silhouette Cameo 4 and I'm gonna prink a bunch of stickers. I am very excited. I'm gonna make stickers for our music projects and I'm really fucking stoked about it.
We're considering other avenues like patreon or ko-fi or Idk something. Bandcamp also has the option to create artist subscriptions, but I need to learn a lot more about it before I commit to anything. Plus I'd really like them to make a more clear stance on crypto rather than "idk" from 2011. Though I guess that in and of itself is kind of a sign that they just aren't really that interested. Or at least that's how I'm choosing to interpret it.
Please:
Be kind to yourself.
Fuck the police.
Keep social distancing.
Wash your hands.
Wear a mask.
GET VACCINATED.
Stay safe.
Whew okay hello February!
Spent all night in a flurry of anxiety dreams because I am bad at communicating at work, and there's nothing like quiet night time to perseverate on every little thing you've ever said or done. 0/10 would not recommend.
Working through it by reminding myself of the vast infiniteness of space and how my job is a bullshit internet job and how nothing really matters. Existential-dread-inducing in some, tranquility-inducing in me.
Spouse and I are probably gonna pull our music from every streaming thing that isn't Bandcamp. Honestly I'm grateful. I've been having angst about it but didn't feel ready to pull that proverbial trigger but in all honesty it's just not worth it and I'd rather sink my energy into One Thing.
I try not to be a big purity test person when it comes to other people, but I am deeply a purity test person in my heart. And sloughing off these things that feel wrong will feel good. So yay.
Also getting hella hyped on maybe putting out cassettes for our music. Like. I am so hype. Idk it just feels more real.
Please:
Be kind to yourself.
Fuck the police.
Keep social distancing.
Wash your hands.
Wear a mask.
GET VACCINATED.
Stay safe.